A Boring Bday

i think today was the most boring bday i had ever had...as far as i remember...a little experiment from my side was to remove by date of birth from all my social networking accounts and the result i observed was wat i presumbed....People forget when they grow up except the ones who dont do either...

From Yes Boss to No Boss

ok i just hope it makes sense for me to write this...for this blog to stay truely an uninterupted thread.

The biggest take away for me this year will be the fact that "I learnt to say No" but how does this impact me negatively i really dont bother, atleast for the moment. But where does this lead me to i think am soon to find out. But what could be the possible reasons for this change....may be recession...may be i just got a bit bolder...may be this is exactly what i am. Seriously the last reason scares me!!!

Virtualization Socialism on limited resources

After hearing Hasso last month this sentence which he spoke has been ligering in my mind........ Its not only technical but political too....From what i understand of cloud computing the software business is changing not due to technology but due to the fanacticism of the capitalist economies....It wouldnt be right to say "Google wins because it can scales up faster". The content google handles is different from what we do...politically people se google as free so you can always socialise.

1996 World Cup Quater Final

This saturday after browsing almost all channels i finally ended up with Z Sports.What caught my attention was our teams blue jersey.So classic those days it had the white Wills logo.The blue color was faintly pale when we compare it to our current one.So the program was about some Oriental Masalas Classic Cricket Colletions.I really dont remember seeing indians bat back in 1996 i think i was probably sitting in Section VI K PSBB kk nagar.But do remember seeing indians bowl.I always felt i was moderately patriotic with little practical nationalism back then and sometimes even now...but i still remember the one ball which made be so excited back then and even now.Almost 10 overs had passed Amir Sohail and Saed Anwar were blasting Srinath and Prasad to all parts of the park then in the 10th over we dismiss Saed Anwar...Srinath comes around the wicket and bouces on Saed...but no one is stopping Sohail.The strong headed Sohail plays a superb shot on the half side.He simply cannot enjoy the shot alone...he walks done pointing a finger at Prasad asking him to place a fielder there i guess!! At that very moment there was this sudden anger something deep inside, you feel personally insulted and want to hit back...riding on the same emotions nearly 12 yrs later... even this time i knew wats going to happen the very next ball...Prasad bowls a leg cutter and Sohail makes a fool of himself...the stumps are blown out and Prasad says something nice back to Sohail pointing at the pavillion...wat a sight i was able to relive that high 12 yrs later on a saturday night.I somehow feel we must thank the Pakis...they make us feel more indian than we actually do naturally!!!

Vaaranam Ayiram scenes which connects to our lives!!

A good movie is a story in reality and a good story is a movie with reality.So Vaaranam Ayiram the strength of 1000 elephants...a movie with a semi real story is fairly a good movie with addons...

But i am not writing this as a review or my views of the movie but the parts/scenes which connected to my life were the parts not where Surya goes into drugs or developes 6 packs or saves a kid...it happens only in the movies and kind of addons which looked grt on the screen...The part of the movie which really connects are the parts when Surya is in teens and when he gets out of college...

Wow i still remember the wonderfull time i had cycling kk nagar...the sector grounds...the way we used to slam the cycle breaks to skid...the street corners we used to stand just for someone spl to give you the smallest tiniest of looks :) with their eyes queued to the most extreme possible without turning their head...the petty fights with freinds for reasons we never knew at the end of the fight...the memories are still so exciting.These could have happened to anyone with anyone but it did happen and it happened just like the movies...Then comes the best scene in the movie when surya joins college...there would be one dialogue wen a senior fights with our man and would say..."ithu ellam madras le vechiko" it resonates in my mind... studying at TCE in big village like madurai i often heard that from seniors or even classmates...just tightening ur arms feels good...once in a while with blood pumping...Every holiday travelling back to chennai from madurai in pandian express with ppl i loved to be with was painfully romantic...the best time to see full moon is with the train doors open sitting on the coach stairway...totally out of this world and ofcos playing guitar would have been grt but its ok you cant do everything right :)

Krishnan was a grt father...a straight forward guy who loved his son (the lorry scene when he starts driving and tells his son its just like driving a car any boy would imagine his father as a hero) and i remember Mohanbabu telling me how to drive a bullet bike when i was 7 yrs old.I still remeber him taking me along when he used to play tennis at Adyar tennis coutrs...i used to stare at the huge scar he had in his knee...it had 8 to 9 horrible stiches but the way he used to boast about that was too good...like a soldier injured in the battle with bullet marks...he actually was REC trichys football goal keeper before he tore his knee...he then moved on to hockey since his father didnt allow him to play anymore...i remeber him talking to me constantly like a chatter box i simply used to listen hugging him sitting behind in his green Lamby scooter...

The reason i like sports was may be it was his influence knowingly.He used to say after my tennis coaching class i played better than some seniors wen i was 8 yrs old and i must change my backhand grip...i really beleived it then and may be i was playing better but may be he was just motivating watever i can now imagine how his eyes glowed seing me play...

Tears poured down but hiding it from my friend sitting besides me in the theater when Surya tells his wife towards the end of the movie "daddy sonaru yenna katha solla solran anna yennala pasamudhiyala valikuthu...yenna pathi naraya kadha sollu so that they dont forget me"

Its true my sisters kid sees my fathers photo and used to ask abt him...we tell her his boyhood heroics with his pet myna bird  as a lunch time story to her...she remebers babu thata that way...some parts in that movie are from such small incidents with happens in all our lives...the painful losses and the happy moments we could relate with some imagination...

It was a grt exp watching that movie, giving me a chance to relive the life i once lived early 90's at madras and exercising my memories i rather dont forget!!!

An Year To Remember

So here i go doing nothing this weekend and just 2 more weeks to go before my winter vacation starts it was time to look back!!!

It started some time back in college 'I am happy in my loneliness' feel has continued to rule my life till this year.Even when i was kid i liked 'Home Alone' not coz my family left me back home during christmas but being a Man of your house is just a great feel espl when no one is around... butafter all these years finally things changed...may be i got bored of it...may be i am getting old...whatever the lucky part was the transition was smooth.

After moving to Bangalore in the mid of 2007 its taken a year to get used to the new home.But Blore has been kind enough the chilly winter and warm summers were enjoyable.Labs was a second home some times so much liberty that you dont want to go back home.The biggest challenge was the job...it took time and some hard tolerance to get used to the new project the new colleagues and some new intresting ppl..I have to admit the job swept me off my feet after an year of dog days at the prev org all the dejavu was over for the time being hopefully...

The best part of it was last week talk by my SVP...never did i think a management guy would talk about craftmenship and the feeling of being a carpenter...He said something like this..."Given the choice between being a carpenter or a manager of 20 carpenters i would choose the former"...A old fellow colleague went on to say..."There are few Real Coders and some who claim they are too old to program and wanted a better role"...

I felt lucky for being in that room and for that matter getting that job :)

Well it was after all not all work and no fun this year.A really mixed year which seemed so far to be balanced.The Fun part was my first overseas trip to Singapore and Malasia.True to every sense SG is a model city so perfect that I felt i didnt belong there.The ppl there are tuned to obey rules which they did follow unconsciously but wats the cost of this perfect sytem..the Carnot Engine is still a theoretical engine and even thats wat the Matrix triology says...the freedom of governance is what is killing our country and thats the key to these model countries like SG and Malsia.The democracy we are all so fond of is surely not a personal choice for the ppl living there... 

I had also gone to Tiomon islands from KL.Such a wonderful place totally out of this world.For once i swam in deep sees just to realize there was a world below the waters...I have been fascinated by adventures(small or big) but this trip will always be remembered!!

So right after vacation some time mid year the real pressure started.Job has been intense and draining till last week...but a lot of failures faced in that span sometimes giving a feel of moving from one failure to the next almost with no loss of hope to succeed..Things changed new skills learnt and finally the project was in my comfort zone...

Diwali was a nice time to celbrate espl after getting my new car the Vista hatchback.I was always dreaming of riding a car to chennai and finally even thats gone fall in place...

I should startback chennai by mid of this month...the vacation starts i hope the journey will be safe and completed with no major challenges...i am getting to drive better thats wat i think from inside the car...better judged by the ppl outside...

i again have a lot of plans for the winter vacation and my car is part of all thos e  plans...

Another year coming to an end...after years of bloom finally we are facing some real challenges...but surely not the time to say i am comfortable with life!!!

The very small challenges which make me feel not so comfortable is what that really makes me look forward...The Last Wave